I wonder if you’ve felt this way before.
I suspect this is a human condition, a pattern others also have experienced…maybe even you, dear reader.
It’s this: You’ve been friends with another person for quite some time, and you lift each other up through challenges. You’re present for one another. You might even say you share love with this friend. You’ve gone places together. You’ve given each other cards and gifts.
You’ve shared intimate details of your journeys.
You’ve cried together, like the tears falling now as I write this, because I miss her.
A friend of mine is giving me the cold shoulder. Not answering messages. Has shut the door of her heart to me.
And I’m feeling the pain of this new loss.
I’ve had other friends walk away without a word.
I will never understand this pattern, never see it coming, never do this to someone. I love too deeply and care too deeply about another’s feelings to ever do this to someone.
It’s cruel.
Or at least that’s the way it feels to me.
In addition…here I sit believing this: that we aren’t separate from one another, that we share Oneness. I am in you, and you are in me.
Which makes this separation rattle around inside me with so many questions, with my heart aching.
I won’t be angry with her. I can’t be. And I won’t harbor ill thoughts about her.
I love her.